My husband, kids, they also lost my son, and additionally, they lost me. I didn’t know it was happening, I didn’t see it in time. My grief had consumed me, and my relationships with it. At first I was angry, how can they leave me when all I am is sad? How dare they leave me because my heart is broken!
After calming myself, I realized my world had started to revolve around my grief, that I had been so immersed in my grief that I had been giving all my energy to it, and not to my family that was here. I’m sure they felt unloved. I’m sure they were angry, and lost. I was losing the people that I loved the most. I’m angry for slipping so far from myself. It’s a hard journey back, and I may have already lost, but I will not give up, one way or another I need to find me, before they run, before I can’t find my way back.